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Dear Disgusting One,
Aren't you tired of being the fat one everywhere you go? Of having to be conscious of whether or not your fat rolls are
able to be seen through your clothes? Or of how your chins look from the side when people look at you? Aren't you sick of
catching a glimpse of your reflection in a mirror or a window and hating what you see? You've tried diet and exercise. You've
tried self control, limiting what you eat. You have tried laxatives, green tea, apple cider, girdles, duct tape, and every
other trick in the book to make yourself look like less of a fat ass. Has it worked? Have you looked pretty even one day
in your miserable life? Has anyone ever looked at you and though, "wow, she's stunning?" or "wow, she looks
so healthy?" NO. People look at you and think that you are exactly what they don't want to be. They pity you. You
disgust them. You are a disgusting, filthy excuse for a human. You have no self control. It's never just one scoop of ice-cream,
oh no. For you it's half the container. Never just one or two cookies; it's the whole sleeve. And after all that you have
the nerve to lie in bed and not work those disgusting calories off. You sicken me. You are completely without hope. You
are a lost cause.
Or are you? I believe I can help. The journey will be long, and oh yes, it will be tough. You will cry. There will
be pain. Perhaps even a bit of blood. Definitely lots of sweat. Oh, yes. But in the end you will become exactly what you've
always wanted be, what others have never been able to see.
You want to know how I can help you, I can see the curiosity in your eyes. You see, I represent what you lack: self
control, motivation, perfection, lightness...together, you and I will walk the path to perfection, to thinness, no matter
how rough that road is. I will move into your brain and control your thoughts and emotions. Soon, we will be One. A day...a
minute...will not go by where you do not think of me. With every hunger pain, every growl of your fat stomach, and every
tear you shed, you will remember that I live inside you.
This is for your own good. You see how people look at you. You see the pity and humor in their eyes. Nobody takes you
seriously; how could they? They are staring at the worlds fattest, ugliest person. Everything you say goes unnoticed and
unappreciatated. You are absolutely unworthy of love, affection or kindness. You represent everything that is wrong with
society: gluttony, over indulgence, laziness...how dare you? How dare you shame your family by looking and acting like you
do?
As I said, I will help you. You must stay strong. The road will not be an easy one to follow. There will be people
that will tell you that I am bad for you, that I am making you unhealthy. But ask yourself: are you healthy now? There
will be people telling you to eat, that food is not the enemy. Lies! Food has gotten you to this point. Every cookie, cracker,
and brownie that has slid past your slimy lips has wound up right on your thighs and stomach. Food IS the enemy, and I am
the ammunition! You CAN and WILL overcome self indulgence.
Only the strong can go without food. Just think of what a sweet secret it will be! To know that you are above something
that is usually so necessary. You will be powerful and beautiful. People will admire you, they will look up to you. They
will remember you as the Beautiful One. And I can help. When things get hard, just rely on me. Let me do the talking, the
thinking. You just focus on not eating. This is the easiest diet plan in the world; no funny recipes, no weird exercises.
Just you and me. Forever.
Always,
Ana
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