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I believe in Control, the only force mighty enough to bring order to the chaos that is my world. I believe that I am the most
vile, worthless, and useless person ever to have existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and
attention. I believe that other people who tell me differently must be idiots. If they could see how I really am, then they
would hate me almost as much as I do. I believe in oughts, musts, and shoulds as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behavior.
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it. I believe in salvation through trying a bit harder than I did yesterday.
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of God, and memorize them accordingly. I believe in bathroom scales as
an indicator of my daily successes and failures. I believe in hell, because I sometimes think that I am living in it. I believe
in a wholly black and white world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the abnegation of the body and a life ever
fasting.
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